Sunday, August 15, 2010

Patch Adams

Well, it's not only about the name, it's about his life and attitude as a physician.

I just watched "Patch Adams", the movie, which is a 1998 comedy-drama film starring Robin Williams based on the true life story of Hunter "Patch" Adams. It's is a great a movie and every medical student should watch it, to understand your duty and responsibility as a physician before you receive the honor as a doctor.

Hunter "Patch" Adams is an American physician, social activist, citizen diplomat and author.And the most important thing is that each year he organizes a group of volunteers from around the world to travel to various countries where they dress as clowns in an effort to bring humor to orphans, patients, and other people.

"We are improving the health, not delaying the death."

This sentence is the one that gives me the most impact. Besides, i see the thing that we always talk about it in school - Don't treat the disease, treat the patient. Most of the time, our, the doctors concern more about the patients' files and diseases, but not the patients themselves. Do you ever go deep and understand what the patients' feelings or backgrounds, their stories? This is so true yet most of us didn't actually practice it, including myself. Whenever i was clerking case, i was so concerned about my report that i don't even spend much time chatting with the patients. That's bad, isn't it?

To become a doctor is really a meaningful thing in my life, perhaps the most one so far. I really wish that i can graduate and help people in the future. However, it's tough and obviously i don't have the confidence. I feel unsafe. Sometimes i really scared that i may be failed in exam and delayed in graduating because i am not a smart one, or maybe the weaker one. It totally sucks!

Dreams are hard to be fulfilled. I understood. But I hate the feeling of being unsecured. I hate to take risk. Isn't it ridiculous? It drives me down, it drives me away from the enjoyment in studying medicine. Sometimes, i am really like a bastard.

It's unsecured...
I am scared...

1 comment:

Li Chen said...

dun worry nic. i m also scared of risk sometimes. so i choose to avoid the hardships and live an easier life. but in fact, we need to take risk to get us further and also improving ourselves. we shud see risk as "longkang" we need to jump over to move forward. though we might failed a test from taking a risk, but it's better than doing nothing and just stand there.. gambateh together, buddy!